The Open Door

Today I had an appointment with the neurosurgeon that has been managing my tumor case.  He and others had already reviewed the FMRI and MRI reports and was ready to review everything with me.  I didn't realize how much information was going to be divulged at once during my meeting with him.  The purpose of this meeting was to decide whether further surgery would be advantageous or not before treatment.

Now before meeting with me I learned he had already received unanimous consensus from 5 collaborating neurosurgeons that to surgically remove the tumor before starting other forms of treatment would provide the best chance of success.  At the time my mind reeled at the thought of another major brain surgery.  As this information settled, he told me of another neurosurgeon he had already asked to be a co-surgeon with him during the operation.  This surgeon he spoke of is not only highly regarded in his field but has worked with my doctor many times in the past.  His passion for the best outcome for me and skills at lining up the best team to get those results touched my heart.  I began to feel that all the Lord's work in this situation was beginning to show me to a door...this door being another surgery.

With the opportunity of this door there comes much fear for me.  I mean, we are talking about my brain!  The door has some risks...just like any situation like this would bring.  So what to do, how to decide?  I will just break it down like this.  The direction I feel the Lord leading me is that he has setup an ideal circumstance for healing...he has directed  me to this point through a number of key situations...the door is before me and feels difficult to pass through.  I will continue to put my trust in him and walk through the door.

Result?  Currently I am scheduled to have the procedure May 25 and feel that it is the best decision I could have made.